|—||Brooke F (via doubtfully-undecided)|
My +1 and I at my company’s holiday party.
I didn’t know what I was getting myself into but hey, if I get 2 floors of:
Home made ice cream and macaroons
Servers walking around with crab cakes and shrimp
Sushi bar with sake
Dance floor with goo goo dancers
Red carpet entrance (I can do without this. Way too underdressed. And the bouncer almost made us leave bc I was so awkward in answering his questions.)
One word: swanky
I definitely will need time getting used to this heteronormativity and upper middle class atmosphere. I hope I never get sucked into this lifestyle but it feels nice to be pampered and seeing my +1 smile and have a great time. :)
Andrea Gibson is just as good in her videos as she is live.
I still remember when you first introduced me to her. She’s been my favorite spoken word poet since.
I like to ask myself a lot of questions. I enjoy questioning my behavior and actions to understand where they stem from. And I like discussing particularly the point of human existence and how my life fits into the larger scheme of things.
Here are my thoughts:
- What are you willing to sacrifice?
- You can’t appreciate happiness until you’ve felt and understand pain. What kind of pain are you willing to endure?
- What are your priorities? What motivates you?
- At the end of the day, do we all just not strive to be happy?
- What is it that sets us apart, you and I? What makes my ambition different and what makes us more or less content with things?
- Do we ultimately get to make our decisions or is there a larger plan for us? Regardless of the decisions we think we are making, is there already a set destiny for us?
- What makes you happy? What are you willing to do to reach this level of happiness?
- It seems as we get older with age, the decisions we make will always have a negative consequence. Each alternative will also have its positives and larger negatives. There will no longer be any clear obvious answer. It’s going to be a true test of what’s more important to you because each decision can potentially shift the direction of your life.
- I’m happy, happier than I have ever been for a while now, post study-abroad. My life seems and feels perfect because it’s finally balanced. I have a wonderful, loving girlfriend who never fails to remind me every day of how lucky I am to have her in my life. I landed a near perfect job to start exactly the career that I want to have 10 years down the line. And as a plus, a recruiter from my dream company called me to tell me that I scored very high in my interviews and told me to keep applying b/c I’d be a good fit. He even said he would refer me. That’s been good to my self-esteem. I’m not giving up by any means, but I’m perfectly content with this awesome opportunity presented in front of me at my new job that comes with a great team. And lastly and most importantly, I have the most amazing friends anyone could ever ask for who have seen me at my worst, stuck by my side, and believed in me when I didn’t believe in myself. I feel so much love every day, and honestly I would not be the person I am today without the incredible support system I am so lucky and fortunate to have. I will always value all the friendships that have endured with time. This is what I call my recipe for happiness. But, happiness like this never lasts, and what I mean is that, I will soon be forced to make a decision at the crossroads that will shake the balance. Because that’s how life is, isn’t it? Life would be too easy if it were always smooth sailing, right? You got to add some tension to increase appreciation and not take things for granted, yeah? I wish it weren’t so. Life just feels too good right now.
phtocrdt_ shiba inu
i need this to be my life
my ideal future: a baby, puppy, and no partner~*~*