I am going to make this a life goal of mine. It is one of the hardest things to achieve, but I want to try to get there. I want to let go of every single attachment, whether it may be a significant other, family member, loved one, friend, etc.
I want to ultimately become someone who is completely appreciative of life, seeing every connection in my life as a bonus or an addition that adds meaning and value to my life. I don’t want anyone to ever have a complete hold on my life, who can shatter me and make me feel like I can’t fully function as a happy human being. I am not talking about detachment here. I want to continue to build and strengthen my relationships with others, but I think this mindset allows me to fully cherish everyone and everything that this life has given me. It is about accepting the ebb and flow of life, the fact that people come and go. It is about being grateful.
I think I have taken steps in this direction. A few months ago, when I felt vulnerable, my co worker told me he had interviewed for Google and they gave him an offer but retracted the offer because they couldn’t match his current salary. He said he was still interviewing with other companies and told me his green card situation. I immediately felt sad, and a rush of emotions overwhelmed me. He was my first Adap friend, and now I consider him one of my closest friends. He has been the most amazing support system for me at the company, and I can literally talk to him about anything and everything. We have been there for each other through our worst, and I didn’t want to lose him. I was completely thinking about myself. I thought about what was best for me and how this would impact my life, but I didn’t think about his well being at all.
Now fast forward to a few days ago…
He randomly messaged me to talk and told me he wanted to share news with me. My intuition kicked in, and I knew something was up, so I immediately asked him if it was good or bad news. He dodged my question but seemed like he really needed to get it off his chest. He told me that I was the only person he was telling the news to until everything gets finalized. I met up with him, and that’s when he told me that he was leaving the company. Google contacted him again, and they gave him the offer and also matched his salary.
This time around, I didn’t feel sad. Instead, I felt very happy for him because I knew he always wanted to work for Google. He wasn’t meeting his full potential here at Adap, and I know he will be doing incredible things at Google. The company is also taking care of his greencard situation, which is extremely ideal since most companies aren’t willing to go through the hassle. I am completely supportive of his big decision just like how he’s been pushing me to pursue my own passion. I will surely miss him, my wise and silly friend, but I know we will remain in each other’s lives.
I have made progress in terms of reaching this lifelong goal, and I hope this becomes an upward trend.